Have you ever experienced some degree of abandonment, if only for a short time? Do you remember the painful and scary feeling that goes along with it?
As the holidays are upon us, everyone is starting to feel festive for the upcoming vast preparations of all holiday activities.
As for me, it has been one hell of a ride for me in the last two years without my family members. Since the devasting tragic events, life has been scary and lonely. After the funeral of my previous burial of my family member, it appears others were going back their accustomed lifestyle living as I went back home alone in the house. I could not understand why these sudden losses and how can I be less lonely especially during the holidays.
It’s tormenting me just to be stranded alone during the holidays. I feel embarrassed even to invite myself to strangers home. I was hoping people will take the initiative and ask if I was interested in attending their Christmas gatherings. However, I stop and think to myself, wait the minute I am not ready for this. My feelings will be hurt and jealous in watching others entertain their own family with Christmas gifts, and I feel a stranger to these new people.
No more self-pity and start figuring out what I shall do during the holidays. What comes to my mind is charity work as a way gives back to those who are less fortunate. I started to look for different organizations that were meaningful to me. When I located a group and committed to participate, my heart started to feel a different beat, and I began to live a life full and less lonely.
I am sure there are other ways to be less lonely especially during the holidays, but my best intention was to give back. Being compassionate to others allows me to grow personally and consistently find ways to contribute as a way to find out what life offers me after my tragic events.
So what ways have you have found to be less lonely during the holidays? Love to hear your comments. Don’t forget; subscribe to my email list.
